My name is Charlotte, I was born in England and grew up with my mum, brother and sister. My dad chose not to see me and my brother for almost five years of our childhood. Shortly after reconnecting he would once again stop seeing us periodically. My mum and sister did an amazing job raising me and my brother. Having two strong female role models in my life has definitely shaped who I am today.
They say I am ….
People have always described me as funny and confident. This is the image I would try to present to people. It was my defence mechanism as I would find it difficult to open up and speak about my feelings. People have called me inspirational as I had my first son at 22 and appeared to cope very well. The decision to leave my fiancé as he was a cheat and a gambling addict left me as a young single mum. I did not feel like an inspiration and questioned my parenting choices constantly and I felt like a failure and a disappointment.
I have depression and anxiety, this became worse after my first son was born. Little did I realize how severe it was, but it got progressively worst. Eventually I went to the doctors about this after my second son was born. I was scared to go out, I did not want to see people and I was very angry all the time. My hair was thinning, I couldn’t sleep, and my muscles constantly ached from being so tense. I had to see three doctors before one finally helped me.
Since getting help my life has been incredible and now I can take my son to simply things like his friend’s parties. This was something that I would panic about for weeks before finally cancelling and not letting him go at the last-minute. Now l have returned to University to pursue my dream of becoming a historian, I have made many friends and am volunteering for different roles.
I aim to become a University lecturer in History, it will take a long time and will be expensive, but I am extremely excited about the challenge.
Behind my smile …
I want to be remembered as strong and determined. My dream is for my sons to know that it doesn’t matter if you make mistakes in life, just try to be the best version of yourself. Life can be tough but if you overcome your obstacles and hardships, then you come out a bigger and better person. Coming from a broken home didn’t define me. Being a young mum didn’t define me. Having mental health problems didn’t define me. I define who I am and who I can be.
This is the story behind my smile!
First published at https://behindmysmile.co.uk/behind-my-smile-with-charlotte-tyrell/